Dance in the rain

Today I celebrated my dads birthday with him at perkins in cloquet, he got shrimp and i got steak it was amazinngg!!! I saw Carol and gave her a hug! Shes my favorite:) I also chilled with courtney! We went to blackbear walked around, checked to see if clint was working & he wasnt. Nick called me and wanted me to come over but I told him I was tired. He told me have a good night and hung up, what a lil bitch. But he IM’ed me on facebook telling me that hes been having a bad day cuz of work n hes supposedly strung out on opanas n who knows what else. Poooor kid :\ Anyway i am going to bed nigghhhtttyyyyy <3

Well last night I stayed at nicks house, courtney and kyle were there for a little bit but then they left at like midnight. I didnt drink because earlier in the night nick told me he didnt want me to spend the night….so i figured id go home. Anyway, while courtney was leaving he told me that he wanted me to stay so i did, me him and jeren drank some bacardi and got pretty damn drunk..jeren told me i was the prettiest girl thats been with nick so it made me feel pretty good. I didnt think jeren liked me at first cuz he kept calling me a bussdown n telling me he doesnt want me to come over n whatnott. But last night was good i had fun. Jeren and nick got into an argument about who was the better telemarketer, anyway long story short nick called Mcdonalds told them a fake story about how they forgot his three big mac meals or whatnot, they took down his name and we drove pretty drunk to mcdonalds just to get that free food. Pretty great night! I had a good day today also I went shopping with dustie kyra ella and my mom. We went to eat at perkins in duluth and then we went to kholes. My mom was sick the whole time so that kinda sucked. I had a fun time in kholes with kyra and ella. We were in the bathroom waiting for ella to come out and me and kyra watched two ladies come in and look in a stall, walk out and go into the other one next to it…..curious me and kyra went over into the bathroom to see what it was and we saw a big turd just sitting right there. We started to laugh our asses off, we were trying to be quiet but couldnt help but laugh. After that happened and ella came out of the bathroom we put a bunch of toilet paper in the toilet and around the handle, and ella started to stomp off and cry …kyra later explained “ella never does bad stuff, i think this was her first time” it made me giggle. I love those kids with alllllll my heart!

Today my mom told me that I have always had good aim, after explaining how I rock in beer pong hehehe. She told me that when I was in kindergarden during halloween there was a little carnival in the gym at school and one of the games was to throw a ball at the clowns face, and the clown was my principle. I was too scared to hit him, so when the teachers edged me to try I just sort of plopped it on the ground. I left and played other games, and after ended up at the clown game at the end..once again my teachers tried getting me to hit the principle in the face (I had three balls., which meant three tries) I threw all three balls hitting him square in the face. Shows how nice of a person I am :D

I can always tell im high, because when I go to Netflix.com to watch Malcolm in the middle- in the netflix search bar I type “netflix” instead of “malcolm” hahaha sometimes I crack myself up :)

Sooo…Ive been pumped for this day for awhile now. I really was planning on making my wish at 11:11 ! I was with Tyler Michell and we went to Ty’s house. Before I went into the house I knew I was gonna get stoned so I set an alarm to go off right at 11:11 so I could make my wish! (Of course it was at night because i had slept threw the a.m 11:11) I was looking at my cell phone at 11:05 and I said “6 more minutes till 11:11!” I was so excited I decided to disable my alarm clock cuz “I just knew I would see it”…..Tyler showed me his cell phone at 11:15…I was SO pissed!! I acted like I didnt care…but omg I missed my chance at that wish! Sucks how things work out sometimes…oh well I guess. I will have to wait for my birthday for my next “real” wish! 

I just packed a bowl of some poop brink weed I ended up getting since I couldnt find anything else, I decided to smoke my hamster up- because thats the reason I bought him!!! So I could always have a smoking buddy :) but anyways- We were sharing the bowl, and his poor wisker got singed from a burning piece of weed that got stuck to it :( poor lil guy!! Hes okay now though! Dont worry :D

Today was a good day, a different, unexpected kind of day. It started off with me going to work at 8, I dishwashed with chad (hes such a cutie) and I got off work at 2- after cashing my check I was on my way to bring one of the hostess’s, Julie home. My car started to overheat! It was bad, so i pulled off into a little gas station with a fixit shop attached and the dude told me it was my thermostat that was stuck? Sooo anyways after calling like 2390 people, I decided to take my moms advice and go to walmart to see what they had to say. I walked in there, hoping id figure out what was wrong with the thing…I found out that walmart only does tire and lube but the guy helped me anyway(: His name is Brock ! I got there at about 3:30 and he told me he got off at 5 and could help me then. I tired driving to carlton, but decided to listen to my mommy again and just went back to walmart to wait for brock to get off work! While waiting there skyler saw me so he came n said hi n to see what was up, long story short i guess- we got the parts and they helped me fix the thermostat!! It was a crazy time, pretty cold and not expensive which was awesome!! Afterwards skyler came over and chilled for awhile, i showed him my place here in proctor and he got to meet hammy! We played racket ball and pool in the gym and hammy was happy!! It was a good day, I gotta work at 9 in the morning hostessing!! goodnight!!  September 30th 2011

Today was a good day, I hostessed from 8 to 3 with krista and ..someone i forget who haha but anyway today I found out that I am moving from my condo in proctor in June! Im hoping that I will be able to move out sooner, maybe with some friends or something but with my job I doubt it. I am sick of moving it sucks so much, this will be my fourth time moving in two years. ahh!!! Also I really want a boyfriend, my last “boyfriend” lasted two weeks and it was with some a guy named stephen who was too much of a pussy to even TEXT me to break up with me, just randomly one day he decided to stop talking to me. Its whatever cuz i didnt like him that much- but i havent dated since!!! and that was almost a year ago! AHHH:( I want someone to cuddle with!! and to love!! ..but not just anybody. He has to be the right one(: <3 september 18 2011!!!

It feels like im growing up too fast..its so crazy. I cant stand it. ONE bit. I think of tara and nat and thinking of them having kids is just insane to me, it seems like just the other day I was opening up my baby annabell with them on the couch. I am trying to find myself but the more and more I think about it, I realize how old I am and that I am not a little kid anymore. Its just something I cant accept , I dont know why it freaks me out so much..I think about my past memories and childhood and i wonder who I was. I dont remember how I acted or how I treated others when I was younger. Growing up is a crazy insane thing to go through and it pretty much sucks. September 17 2011 <3